Black Hole...

The more I look the deeper this black hole of debt seems to get.  So how come every payday I feel like my money was just transferred straight from my account to the hands of a thousand bill collectors! Lol...kinda funny...but not really ;-( I feel like I don't get to enjoy any of my hard earned cash so I sneak a little away from the bills to "enjoy life" for a weekend and but that does nothing but make this black hole of debt a little deeper! There has got to be a way to catch up and end this cycle, right? Don't get me wrong, there are things in my life I enjoy *like my husband, my children (3), my extended family and my house (just to name a few)* I'm thankful for that but I want more...I want better!  Wouldn't you? Don't you? Well, we have to start somewhere and I'm not one to be very organized with budget spreadsheets and all but I always know I can start with Prayer...pray and ask God to show you a starting point and to help you to continue on that path (to financial freedom) that He has set forth for you!! I'm starting today!  What are YOU going to do???

What To Do With This Head of Mine...

Defined Curls

Today...no this week...No, the past 2 weeks I haven't had a clue what I wanted to do with my hair! My hair is still pretty short (twa) so there's not much I can do with it.  Or, is the problem me...am I not creative enough to come up with some styles for my twa besides a wash-n-go or defined curls?? Come on ladies! I know I'm not the only one who goes through or have gone through this, am I? Lol. Take a look at these pics and tell me what you think. Or if you have some ideas on styles I can try, let me know :-)

Modified Twist Out

First Journey: Newly Natural

Have you ever felt frustrated with trying to fit in with your friends?  Tired of being broke because you are trying to keep up with the latest trends?  I know exactly how you feel! I reached a point in my life when I decided I no longer wanted to look like every other woman walking around.  All of my life people assumed I was a "stuck up" girl because I am light skinned and I had long hair and my eyes are hazel.  Too add to that, I was really quiet and didn't really speak much to anyone I didn't know.  Inside, I was screaming to be that outgoing popular girl that every high school seemed to have.  But, that image I held onto for years never materialized for me.  I am now 30 years old and still the same quiet person and I'm okay with that.  It took several years for me to accept that I am who I am.  Please believe that I still have days where I don't feel so pretty; even as a grown woman.  The difference is I don't dwell on the fact that I'm not popular and can't wear the latest trends everyday.  I have other things going on in my life that far outweight popularity and fashionable clothing; I am now married and have 3 beautiful children.  One major thing I changed in my life, which was very recent, was my views on how a woman should look.  Society says a woman should be tall, thin, have long flowing hair and wear expensive clothing.  Well, I say a woman should look and be comfortable in whatever skin she was born in! lol. For me, that means average height, slender, and have Natural kinky, curly short hair (I'm a new natural).  Since I have transitioned to natural hair, I have learned more and more about myself.  For example, I am a lot more confident than I thought myself to be.  You have to have plenty of confidence to be natural ladies!  I do understand this journey doesn't end after becoming natural. I have a ways to go in becoming who God made me to be BUT I now realize that I am PURPOSED. DESTINED (for greatness) & NATURALLY ME!! 

Side Note: I do not feel a woman has to become natural to find her purpose in life.  I am just stating my OWN views/opinions and personal experiences.

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Me 2009 (2nd pic)                Me Now (1st pic)